Saturday, June 20, 2015

How to love her

If you want to show her you love her
Take her to the ocean
Let its vast and mighty depths fill
Every sweet vein and trace of emptiness with a love as 
Deep as the water is blue

If you want to show her you care
Let her see your scars
She's carries them too
A reminder of the pain, the sorrow and relentless guilt
That has been rebuilt

If you want to show her kindness
Bring her to a lavendar field
Let the sweet smell of utter bliss and joy fill 
Her soul with a sweet hint of compassion

If you want to show her patience
Stand guard at the gates of her heart
For even in her wildest moments
There is a window in which she will
Leave the blinds unopened for you

If you want to show her yearning
Tell her with a rose
For every petal, intricately made, 
Is like the desires of your heart
Ones that need to be fulfilled,
Only by her sweet touch

If you want to show her love, do as you would any day




Sunday, June 14, 2015

The Villain

I tried to figure you out, 
but little did I know the villain that lied inside

The villain was your eyes
It had the ability to collapse my inner being 
and torment with the desire to seek past them

The villain was in your smile
It was a constant reminder that 
it was the door to unfathmable 
words and whispers of love

The villain flowed through your veins
As they rippled out of your muscular bicep 
and wrapped me late at night with what was 
thought to be a warm embrace

The villain encompassed your laugh
and with each cherishable memory we shared 
I fell a little more and more

The villain kept me company
and in the darkest times I knew 
the villain would be there

Even when I first met you, I never meant to bring out the villain inside.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

The Words

Tonight, I read the letters you wrote me
Looking back, they were a joke to me
You said you loved me and you cared
You said, "You wait and be prepared."
Your words spoke to me, evoked me and
eventually broke me
How could I be such a fool when you wrote to me?

Tonight, I read the texts you sent me
When a goodbye wasn't hard 
and sensitivity, carefree
You sounded precise, 
later on quite nice
You knew what you wanted and 
I knew what you taunted 

Tonight, I saw you for the first time in awhile
I saw the look in your eye that read, " Gee, how could I
be so vile?"
It was awkward. You were there. 
It was weird. I was scared. 
To turn into the thing that I said I wouldn't be 
Just a girl with a hope
that you would write to me

The Future Prospect

I've been thinking a lot lately. 
A small tought about the future. 
In regards to the man I will marry. 
People have said making a list helps remind you, when dating, of what to look for. 
I figured I would give it a shot. 

1. He's gotta love him some Jesus
    We don't have to go to church every Sunday afternoon, I just want to see Jesus play a role in your life.

2. He's gotta make me laugh a good hearty laugh. 
    Whether he has some good jokes, makes somw witty comments or even suggests a good tickle fight, I am all for it!

3. Gym time
    Staying in shape is really important to me. I hope I he is apt to hitting the gym as often as I do

4. He does not eat Bologna
   I am ALL FOR eating stuff we shouldn't, but a good salad now and then really hits the spot. Basically, if he keeps himself healthy and knows the basicfood groups, then that is AWESOME. Less doctors appointments and medical visits will help lower any financial instabilities. Stay Healthy, my friends.

5.  Pray with me and for me
     I don't have to see it or hear it, but would appreciate it. I have been praying for him for awhile now and would only hope he does the same for me

6. Pray over dinner
    I think that just seeing my dad do this every night is something I am used to. Any guy that can say a good blanket prayer over a meal is quite attractive to me

7. Watch the tude, dude
    I am normally not an angry person. When something happens that I disagree with, I typically hold it in rather than blurting it out. When situations like these arise, I hope that we can have a gentle conversation about it rather than a "who can yell the oudest" argument

8. He knows how to handle his money
    I will admit, I like to spend....but i know when I need to stop. I hope that likes to save and then knows when to spoil himself ....or me (;

9. He has a future
    And when I say this, I mean I hope he has goals. I want to see what he's passionate about and find him chasing it! 

10. Generous, Caring and Kind
      He knows when to give tithes, he knows when to give compliments when neeed and he knows when and where to hold the door open

11. Still love me when I'm on my period
       I am not norma Alexis when I am on my period, I get way too cuddly, way too emotional and way too bloated. I may even get mad or moody, but I hope no matter what, he still cares and wants to get ice cream or doughnuts with me

12. I might get fat
      I'm going to try really hard but you never know what may happen when I get pregnant or get older! Who knows, but I hope he can see past physical appearances and realize a fat heart is not a bad thing either

13. He wants to do ... it
      hahaha ok, i know totaly random but still something to be talked about. Due to past experiences, I want this experience with my husband to be the special bond that knits us together. I want to save myself for my future husband and not give away anymore than I have already given. It is a speial piece of me and he. It is a treasure and hope that this desire is something that never fades away.

14. He has my back 
      Through thick and thin, he has my back. Whether it be in the grocery store deciding on milk brands or a larger decision like what house to buy he will stand with me and support me

15. He likes to adventure
     I LOVE to travel and explore and hope I can experience these exciting events with him

16. He knows how to drive
      Safely.

17. He doesn't put me down
     Even if it's a simple joke, I tend to take things to heart

18. He holds me
    When i am excited, when I am sad, when I am mad he is there

19. He listens
      With intent

20. We can dance
      because I just really like to go dancing

21. He shares his gift with me
     We each have been blesse with a gift or ablity. I look forward to him sharing his with me and me being SO excited about it

22. We can nerd out together
     I have a bad obsession with Star Wars, HP and LOTR! He MUST sit and binge watch all the movies with me!!



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